Letting Go

I can feel I am supposed to be letting go of something, but fuck me if I remember what exactly it is I am supposed to let go of!

Anger, Hate, Sadness, Disappointment, Shame, Guilt, Greed, Arrogance, Jealousy, Suffering, Expectations....am I missing anything?

I have done ritual after ritual... therapeutic emotional work... forgiveness ceremonies... and still I find myself grasping for something, since "the point" has no shown up and swimming in "nothingness" really is not on my top ten list.

They let me know about the side effect of the short term memory, but no one told me about the disconnect to the self that goes on to survive this utter physical, mental, emotional and spiritual hell chemo brings on.

And yes, I am doing well. Like a mom who has been given a tough labor, she does a good job navigating it, but that does not make it any less painful.


Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.
-- Raymond Lindquist

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.
-- Author Unknown

People have a hard time letting go of their suffering. Out of a fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar.
-- Thich Nhat Hanh

Stand up and walk out of your history.
-- Phil McGraw

The harder you fight to hold on to specific assumptions, the more likely there's gold in letting go of them.
-- John Seely Brown

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.
-- Joseph Campbell

When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.
-- Lao Tzu

Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood.
-- Karen Casey